Alone, Fearlessly Facing the Inevitable,
As I amble through the ninth decade of my convoluted life, I reminisce …
I reflect on my father’s usual comment, upon hearing my latest criticism of idiotic or oppressive edicts from government … “Abe, you’re tilting at windmills.”
My
Quixotic efforts have through my life been limited to verbal
discourse, or written dissertation such as a Letter to the Editor
submitted to the local newspaper. Those letters which were published
seemed always to draw angry response from readers with tender
toes.
Yet do I continue. For me the challenge is irresistible. I
must not ignore my perceived duty to refute the unreasonable,
illogical position of a proponent of some ridiculous scheme to solve
humanity’s problems with another government program.
A
few years ago I discovered the Blogosphere. Here I entered a rich
field of opportunity for my crotchety expression of irrelevant,
self-centered ideas.
I devote much of my time and effort to
blogging.
I
humbly accept that my essays are devoid of substance, and that most
of my family and few remaining friends are justified in their
collective decisions to ignore my posts.
My freedom of self
expression has a companion freedom — the delicious freedom from
fear. I no longer fear my death, and in my solitude I have no need to
fear the death of a beloved life companion.
My only fear centers
on the possibility of being confined to a wheelchair — unspeaking,
drooling, unable to communicate even my smallest wishes to uncaring
attendants who manage various bodily needs.
Recent media coverage
suggests that solitude in old age is responsible for depression, and
may lead to suicide. Commentary encompasses the numberless accidental
overdoses of narcotic pain pills, enhanced by the synergism of
alcoholic beverage. One wonders if the victims were so drunk that
they did not understand their circumstances. Hmmm?
I am happy,
enthusiastically eager to continue doing what I enjoy, impatient to
begin each new effort, and then joyous at the completion of one of my
many projects.
I feel a strange smug contentment when I relax, in
my recliner, in my apartment, in front of my TV, with the current
book of my selection, with a tray of my own home-cooked meal, at the
end of my day of proud accomplishment.
Not even remotely close to
depression — An intense introspective analysis reveals that I am in
better shape, emotionally and mentally, than I was throughout most of my
life.
I look forward to another ten or fifteen years of a good
life.
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